"I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

it's kind of surreal. 19 days. it's really happening. i'm all grown up and getting married. it's kinda weird. but so exciting. i cannot wait.

i can't wait for an apartment of my own, decorating it myself, filling it with memories and things that are brand new and ours.

i can't wait for jamaica, white sand beaches, all inclusive resorts, snorkeling, sleeping on the beach, relaxing, no more stress.

i can't wait for bridesmaids dresses, hair and makeup, pictures and music, dancing and food, my beautiful wedding dress, personalized chucks.

i can't wait to walk down the aisle on my dad's arm, looking into the eyes of my best friend. i can't wait to see his face at the end of the aisle waiting for me.

but more than anything, i can't wait to be married. i can't wait to start our life together. i can't wait to be able to fall asleep next to him every night and wake up next to him every morning (in our brand new, totally awesome bed!). i can't wait to grow closer, rough through tough times, learn even more about each other, be together.

and it's really happening. in 19 days. that's crazy. it makes my stomach ball up in excitement and my throat catch. it's really happening. as hard and rough as these past few months have been, we have grown and learned. we have fought and loved. and learned over and over that we are meant to be together.

our new life is about to start. and i can't wait!